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I'm that awkward girl who wants to stay home and read books or watch chick flick movies. Loves Strawberries and a Frustrated Writer. I like to cold weathers, I'm a God-fearing girl. Dreamer, Introvert and Optimistic. Loves to listen at The Cab and Sleeping with Sirens.
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Ja-nu-a-ry //
written on Wednesday 16 January 2013 @ 05:46 ✈
New Year, New Me. I already told myself that every year but, i'm still the same me. Getting worst each year and getting really stressed on my life. I don't even have a time for myself this year because i'm putting it off to others than me. I sometimes want to have a little rest for a while and get back on reality. I even told myself to be productive, but as hard as i do, i always give up. Don't really know what the reason is, Sometimes i feel like sleeping. but, the truth is.. I'm so tired.
I've got a long journey ahead and i still hate myself, i can't even do everything right. Maybe 2013 isn't my year. Every night i asked God, Can you please change me? but i know he will guide me and i will be the one to do it all. But, how? I haven't found my way yet.
And i really feel so alone this past days, thinking no one will be there for me if i have problems. i don't want to be gone in this world, not having the love i think i deserve. well, maybe i don't deserve it? I don't know. kinda feel i'm on depression or something. I'm getting worst each day, each month and each year.
I just want to be loved , that's what all people need. I want peace, i don't want to many people to be my enemies. I want to be successful, i want to achieve my dreams, i want to find the real me.
Where's the real me?
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Ja-nu-a-ry //
written on Wednesday 16 January 2013 @ 05:46 ✈
New Year, New Me. I already told myself that every year but, i'm still the same me. Getting worst each year and getting really stressed on my life. I don't even have a time for myself this year because i'm putting it off to others than me. I sometimes want to have a little rest for a while and get back on reality. I even told myself to be productive, but as hard as i do, i always give up. Don't really know what the reason is, Sometimes i feel like sleeping. but, the truth is.. I'm so tired.
I've got a long journey ahead and i still hate myself, i can't even do everything right. Maybe 2013 isn't my year. Every night i asked God, Can you please change me? but i know he will guide me and i will be the one to do it all. But, how? I haven't found my way yet.
And i really feel so alone this past days, thinking no one will be there for me if i have problems. i don't want to be gone in this world, not having the love i think i deserve. well, maybe i don't deserve it? I don't know. kinda feel i'm on depression or something. I'm getting worst each day, each month and each year.
I just want to be loved , that's what all people need. I want peace, i don't want to many people to be my enemies. I want to be successful, i want to achieve my dreams, i want to find the real me.
Where's the real me?
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“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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