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I'm that awkward girl who wants to stay home and read books or watch chick flick movies. Loves Strawberries and a Frustrated Writer. I like to cold weathers, I'm a God-fearing girl. Dreamer, Introvert and Optimistic. Loves to listen at The Cab and Sleeping with Sirens.
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November
written on Saturday 2 November 2013 @ 09:30 ✈
i just wanted to sleep and never wake up.
Hello again! Sorry for not posting, I've been doing lots of things (what i mean about that is me watching an anime or Korean drama or fangirling about musicians and reading books) i know no one reads my blog so i'll just tell you another story.
I did tell you that I've been feeling left out right? the feeling came back again. i just realized that people doesn't mind my presence, so if i'm with them they'll just ignore me. I'm stocked at my house, i don't even know how to socialize anymore. My family hates me, in some unknown reason, i'm starting to think that they don't want me in this world xD but nah.. hay, i wish i didn't exist in this world, if i commit suicide, it doesn't even help. i don't want to die in pain, i'm afraid of death, i'm afraid i won't be back in this wonderful world. yes, this world is wonderful, just the people around me are giving me the bad sights of this world.
All i want is to have a bestfriend who could be there for me anytime. I do have a bestfriends but to be honest, i don't feel them. maybe they don't want me to befriended with them. Like whenever we all see each other they're going to talk about something i can't relate into. They've been telling alots of things but they don't mind sharing it with me. Nah...
I'm just wishing for someone to be there beside me.
Is it just too much to ask for?
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November
written on Saturday 2 November 2013 @ 09:30 ✈
i just wanted to sleep and never wake up.
Hello again! Sorry for not posting, I've been doing lots of things (what i mean about that is me watching an anime or Korean drama or fangirling about musicians and reading books) i know no one reads my blog so i'll just tell you another story.
I did tell you that I've been feeling left out right? the feeling came back again. i just realized that people doesn't mind my presence, so if i'm with them they'll just ignore me. I'm stocked at my house, i don't even know how to socialize anymore. My family hates me, in some unknown reason, i'm starting to think that they don't want me in this world xD but nah.. hay, i wish i didn't exist in this world, if i commit suicide, it doesn't even help. i don't want to die in pain, i'm afraid of death, i'm afraid i won't be back in this wonderful world. yes, this world is wonderful, just the people around me are giving me the bad sights of this world.
All i want is to have a bestfriend who could be there for me anytime. I do have a bestfriends but to be honest, i don't feel them. maybe they don't want me to befriended with them. Like whenever we all see each other they're going to talk about something i can't relate into. They've been telling alots of things but they don't mind sharing it with me. Nah...
I'm just wishing for someone to be there beside me.
Is it just too much to ask for?
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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